Posted by ghost on November 14, 2005, at 22:48:36
In reply to Re: i never post any more, but b2c's post... *trig » ghost, posted by B2chica on November 14, 2005, at 10:03:11
i went to therapy today. we talked a little about it. i was pretty numb. she used the word dissociated with regards to the acts themselves. i never really realised it before. i thought dissociation was something other people did. that i was one of those fake crazies.
if that makes sense. i mean no offense by it, either.
i think some of the problems i'm having weren't just triggered by b2c's posts (but b2c is an easy scapegoat and i love you for it, b2c) but also because there's someone new in my life and i'm totally afraid of trusting them or opening up about things. i think he'd be understanding, but i'm afraid anyway. plus just plain afraid of getting hurt again.
i suppose the emotional closeness i'm afraid of is because i was betrayed by people i thought cared about me.
i think that last sentence is key, as awkward as the sentence itself is.
*sigh*
and i have mono. so i'm feeling extra crappy. hopefully i can sleep tonight. i sure couldn't last night.
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