Posted by allisonross on October 21, 2005, at 15:01:41
In reply to Re: thanx pinkeye! » Jadah, posted by pinkeye on July 22, 2005, at 20:29:58
Dear jadah: Hi, sweetie: So glad you got a new t (is this still true?)) I read all of your postings from last year, and tried to write to you, but this blasted 'puter stuff...I have a gazillion things I'd like to talk to you about........i am so sorry about your cancer; how are you now? I have been in llove with my t for 2 years now; we discuss it frequently. When i finally got the courage to tell him of my feelings for him (he already knew); i consider him to be the most brilliant therapist/man (and NOT because I love him) on the planet....Sensitive, gentle, accomplished [violin, guitar], authentic [one of the most wonderful words he taught me]....will talk about anything; our relationship has been transcendent. I realize he is trying t hold the boundaries (I always have; except for teasing him mercilessly), and he does the same....he said "This is starting to look like a personal relationship." Duhhhh......When I got the courage to tell him I thought HE had feelings for me...his answer: "I am deeply in love with my wife." Notice (perhaps splitting hairs, I am?) he did NOT say he was not in love with ME...i believe he is because of the things he has SAID and DONE.........I could write a whole book (like you culd have) on what has transpired. I feel I can post anything to you, because you understand. I was divorced after 31 years of abuse, and then my church voted me out of a 31-year membership, with my name up on a big screen followed by the words: CONDUCT UNBECOMING A CHILD OF GOD. My friend told me of a fabulous therapist who was an expert i spiritual abuse; that was/is my t....he journeyed with me thru the whole church debacle, and taught me the most valuable words i ever heard: Restorative Justice---This is what you did...this is how it made me feel. So empowering to someone abused (except for 3 years in the army) a whole lifetime! I have a website: www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com (over 150 faith-based poems of anguish, healing, hope and comfort poured from my wounded soul....it has been a phenomenon . My t said that it sounded as if "God was dictating the words to me." he told me that he 'falls in love with all of his clients"---i understand what he means (not romantic love, etc), but i believe he is in love with me (yes, he is married); we are all just human beings...he said that he is very aware that "therapy is a sexual dance"---meaning he is aware of someone who is a woman, etc......I would love to talk to you via e-mail, or even phone, if that were possible.....alone now for the 1st time in 31 years, and on top of all of it, having to deal with unrequited love.......I will close for now; i relate so strongly to your posts, and know you understand.........Love........painfully in love.....Love and prayers for your emotional and physical.....healing.....www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com......my story was published (amazingly with the Ph.D's!)...www.psychiatricjournal.com...entitled: The Transcendent Child on Overcoming Verbal and Spiritual Abuse....P.S. I kept your postings from 2004; still have them
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