Posted by Damos on September 12, 2005, at 18:35:32
In reply to self-control, posted by alexandra_k on September 12, 2005, at 3:39:35
Hmmm. Coupla things stood out for me here.
>and its not even about the system anyway...
its about my dad :-(
but that doesn't help me.Oh yes it does, in all kinds of ways. It also will help your T understand why you continue to put yourself through this. It's not about the p-docs and the system per se but what they represent to you. It seems to me that maybe your not being able to get whatever it is you 'really' need from 'them' is actually reinforcing entrenching something much deeper. And maybe, just maybe that is where the anger comes from, a combination of not having that real need met and not being able to get anyone to understand what the real need is. So when you feel either of those two things, bang! you're triggered in a big, big way. I think that even the stuff you said about the way your partner 'lost it' once before at an appointment is an important part of it.
Alex, I am in no way smart or skilled enough to be much help to you here. But you are smarter and stronger than you give yourself credit for. I know you can take this piece of knowledge and work with it. I know you can.
poster:Damos
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