Posted by fairywings on September 3, 2005, at 6:33:52
In reply to Sorting stuff out, posted by daisym on September 1, 2005, at 22:39:27
Hi daisy,
I'm so sorry you're having such a hard week and have to deal with another vacation so soon.
I agree with the painful and embarrassing part, and I sure feel for you there. I know what you mean about the words disappearing too. My brain gets to the point where it just stops working. It feels like all my thoughts have crashed and I can't get them unjumbled.
I don't think it sounds like what you've told your T is anything that he would find distasteful, and probably isn't anything he hasn't heard from other clients, if they have been as honest with him as you have been. Although I would guess that it takes a lot of time to be able to be that sincere and honest, which I'm sure he appreciates. I'm sure your love for him is normal, even though it makes you feel crappy. Don't you think it's all a part of the connection that we're supposed to have with them? I don't know I've never been at that place. Jealousy is so normal, I can't imagine not feeling it with your T, esp. when you feel so connected to them, and esp. when they are going to be away for awhile.I think that you're really worried about how he feels about what you shared with him, but from what you said, he was more than okay with everything. He said he was glad you told him, and that he wants to talk about this stuff, that he was calm, sweet, and understanding, he said he's coming back, and you will still keep working together. He really does sound wonderful, and I can understand your feelings toward him.
I hope you're feeling better today.
(((hugs)))
fw
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