Posted by cricket on August 20, 2005, at 7:20:49
In reply to Re: Attachment, posted by alexandra_k on August 20, 2005, at 0:25:47
Yeah, me too.
I've been alternating between bouts of despair and anger.
The angry part is muttering curses under my breath, taking offense at the least jostle on the train, scowling at everyone. Then I get her under control and it feels like nothing. I don't care whether I ever see my therapist again, I don't care that my outside life gets worse and worse every year. I just want to crawl in a dark little hole and forget everything.
I need to find one of those theorists that believe early attachment is not so crucial. Otherwise I've failed. Failed the magical age test, failed every test that this T set up to determine if I'm worth his time.
Yes, time to snap out of it. I have a day to myself today. Just to read and journal. Usually that helps.
I'm so sorry we both seem to be in the same place Alex. There's got to be better days ahead.
When's your appointment? It seems like you've certainly tried to deal with enough issues on Babble this week to cull something for her.
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