Posted by Daisym on July 15, 2005, at 18:18:59
In reply to Re: Been thinking about the saying...., posted by Dinah on July 15, 2005, at 17:13:33
Dinah,
You sound so sad. I feel the loss and it makes me remember how I felt when my first child left home, only in reverse. I liked it when he needed me, even if I was proud of him for being so capable and grown-up. It made me feel lonely, and I didn't know where I fit in his life anymore.I decided today that I was probably never going to learn to lean on other people. I'm not good with relationships where I need stuff from people. I'm only good at the ones where I can give. And right now there is nothing to give. I've withdrawn from nearly all my friends and no one has noticed (this is a good thing) that they never see me in social situations, just at work. And as I've been thinking so much about this, I also think that I need to seriously think about ending therapy. I just don't think it is in me to learn this. I think it is too late to learn how to not be lonely. And it hurts to much to keep trying to not be lonely by using therapy to fill this void. I feel like I'm also using Babble to fill this void too, but lately I'm messing up here too. It is hard not to think about running away from it all, isn't it?
This truth makes me so sad. Sorry, didn't mean to make this about me.
poster:Daisym
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