Posted by LadyBug on July 14, 2005, at 0:23:27
In reply to Been thinking about the saying...., posted by LittleGirlLost on July 13, 2005, at 20:52:45
I've been exactly where you are. It hurts!!!!!! You will heal this part of you in time. But it takes a lot of time to trust that you will see her again and she is safe. I had a hard time on the weekends, knowing she wasn't in her office if I needed her.
Internalizing is good because it means you are taking her inside and you can use her in ways that will help you. You can have imaginary talks with her. I think about mine all the time too. And I've been with her for 8 1/2 years!! I call her when I need to feel our connection. She understands, she wants me to need her. But it just feels wrong sometimes to love someone you can't hang out with or be with any other way than therapy. I've been through all the painful stuff it can cause. It is almost like having your heart professionally broken.
Hang in there, it will get better in time. No pain, no gain, my T. would tell me. I'd want to run away!!!!
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