Posted by Poet on July 10, 2005, at 13:15:53
In reply to pain, continued, posted by shrinking violet on July 10, 2005, at 11:55:38
Hi SV,
I wish you could talk to your T, too. I wish you could tell her how much termination has hurt you.
Maybe you should write down everything you are feeling and send it to your T. I know she probably wouldn't respond, but she would still see how hard this is for you.
I have never been terminated, so I have to think of how I felt when someone I thought cared about me left me. I wrote a poem and sent it to the guy I dated (for two years) prior to meeting my husband. He never responded, but I still hope he understood how badly I was hurt.
I don't think you were horrible and unbearable to work with. Everytime I tell my T that I am, she says I'm projecting. You weren't a therapy blurter, you went at the pace you were comfortable going. Looking back and hurting yourself for not being the kind of client you thought your therapist should have is not being fair to yourself. Posters keep reminding me that I need to see myself as others do. So do you.
I can see how hard it would be to live with your sister and see what she has and you don't. I know my older sister would feel the same way about me, though she had that career I covet so badly. Sometimes I think that we have the wrong lives- I would be so happy with hers and vice versa. I'll bet you have many qualities your sister would love to have or be.
I would give you a physical hug if I could. I don't usually allow that, but I will make another (I made one for Daisy) exception for you. If I could, I would hug you tight.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((SV))))))))))))))))))))))
Poet
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