Posted by cricket on July 8, 2005, at 11:42:16
In reply to Re: Again I feel like I can't go back to therapy » cricket, posted by Tamar on July 7, 2005, at 18:34:36
> > He's the only person who's ever tried to see me. So I think that he must see what I see and what I see is repulsive and horrible.
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> I’m familiar with the fear that my therapist would see me as the repulsive and disgusting person I really am. But I’ll never forget how astonished I was when I began to talk about it: how he showed absolutely no sign of finding me disgusting. At first I thought he’d missed it, or that he didn’t understand quite how thoroughly abhorrent I am, but it eventually became apparent that he wasn’t repulsed by me. Unbelievable! And such a relief.
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> > The only gift I can give him, the only way I can pay him back for everything he's tried to do is to relieve him of my presence.
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> On the other hand… I’m not sure that he’d see your withdrawal as a gift. Maybe the gift you can give him is to keep going, and try to tell him how you’re really feeling. Easier said than done, I know.
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> > I hope that this passes before I am in danger of actually making that phone call.
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> I hope so too.
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> Tamar
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Thanks Tamar. It's good to know someone has been there before and managed to fight through this.
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