Posted by daisym on July 4, 2005, at 18:36:49
In reply to Re: 3 days and counting...(a little long) » daisym, posted by Dinah on July 4, 2005, at 16:43:13
I think you've explained a lot of what I'm feeling. I think I'm really just very unhappy with myself for allowing myself to feel so rotten about this. I want my logical mind to kick in and say: it is only 14 days, you have lots of things to keep you busy and you will just begin working again when he gets back. Being this aware of my lack of resilency is crushing for my ego.I have to get perspective on therapy and where it fits into my life again. I can not continue to walk around thinking I'd die if therapy ended suddenly or if he didn't come back from his vacation. Because I know it isn't true.
I guess I'm just mad at myself today. And feeling like a lost little girl. I actually had the urge this morning to call my dad and tell him how hard things are at work. I already know that he would tell me I'm doing all the right things and I know that he can't change anything that is happening. But it makes me wonder where this urge came from. I'm usually so careful not to reveal anything negative to him. I guess it is another indication of how confused I am right now.
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