Posted by caraher on July 4, 2005, at 16:13:35
In reply to 3 days and counting...(a little long), posted by daisym on July 4, 2005, at 15:50:10
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> Why is today painful and hard? It is a holiday and I should have more to distract me.Holidays are often extra hard. I'm actually in my office now because at home I couldn't figure out a way to enjoy the day "off."
>And besides, I'm not supposed to want to cry over things, crying doesn't solve problems and only makes people lose faith in you. My husband can't handle it for sure, he looks at me like I've turned into some kind of alien creature. What happened to his strong, competent wife who takes care of him? It is a fair question.
It's not as though you *chose* to want to cry. This question - did he tell you he thinks this? Maybe his look reflects a feeling of helplessness on his part. Maybe he just doesn't know how to react. You may just be assuming that he's thinking critical thoughts when he isn't.
> I hate this. And I hate myself that I'm so underwater with it, drowning quietly, the fight completely gone out of me. I am just so pathetic.
(((daisy))) Don't hate yourself. You're not pathetic at all, you're just having a hard time.
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