Posted by daisym on April 25, 2005, at 1:07:37
How do you use therapy when life gets really complicated? It feels like the world is caving in -- there is this huge work thing this week that will be awful and my husband is in the hospital until at least the middle of the week...and I have a humongous board meeting next Saturday. How can I even consider working deep in therapy?
I know the answer -- use therapy for support. I don't know how to "just" do that. The younger parts of me are hurting, screaming to be heard and comforted. I've been in executive mode for more than a week, and even this part of me is overwhelmed and tired.
When I got back from the hospital tonight, there was a message from my therapist, asking about my husband, telling me he was available if I needed him and that he would see me tomorrow. I cried. Because I missed his call. Because I just plain miss him. But then I thought, what on earth do I talk about tomorrow?
Sometimes I feel so trapped with no way out. I guess I hoped that all this work in therapy would help me figure out how to cope better. Somehow, instead, it feels like I just have more to cope with. I hear the pdoc in my head, "maybe this is the wrong time for you to be in therapy."
Maybe she is right. But it is too late to quit now. I can't stand the thought of it.
I hate this. Life was NOT supposed to be this hard.
(Speaker, I know you've been here. I hope you are reading. Tell me how you survived it.)
poster:daisym
thread:489106
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