Posted by mair on March 17, 2005, at 16:43:28
In reply to Re: so what's this all about? (long a trigger ) » mair, posted by judy1 on March 16, 2005, at 11:40:07
Judy - you're not rambling at all; what you say is helpful. After my last session I was just so worried that as long as I'm in my current state of depression and anxiety, therapy will not seem useful, or at least I won't know how to use it. My T is always getting after me about the dangers of categorizing sessions as good sessions and bad sessions, particularly since my definition of a bad session has more to do with my own communication difficulties than it does with anything she's doing or even subject matter.
Today was less stressful maybe because at her urging, I've started taking xanax a little more frequently so at least I'm not bouncing off the ceiling. She's being pretty great - making it clear that she's there to help me in whatever way works best. I told her that I really don't know how to lean on someone - every instinct I have is to draw inward when I'm depressed. I've agreed to add a session so I'll see her again tomorrow, although, as she noted, it won't be any good for me to see her more often if I come out feeling so much worse on account of not communicating well. We'll see.
Thanks as always
Mair
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