Posted by Dinah on March 16, 2005, at 10:29:08
In reply to Re: so what's this all about? (long a trigger ) » Dinah, posted by mair on March 16, 2005, at 10:09:10
As you know, I can identify. Both with the frustration of not feeling the same one day as the next (and having trouble remembering what it felt like to feel differently) and also about work.
I know I'm not as productive today as I was a year ago, which was not as productive as two years ago, which was definitely not as productive as six years ago.
I'm reading a book "The Dependent Patient: A Practitioners Guide" and though I haven't gotten very far, it discusses the ways in which dependence can be expressed. I'm not really clear enough to explain it, but it is something along the lines that if certain behaviors (like being competent and productive) were rewarded with the emotional reaction desired in certain situations, then those behaviors can be motivated by dependency even though they don't look like it. I don't know if it is applicable in your situation, but it explains a lot in mine. Why my productivity nosedived when my father retired. And certain aspects of why it's even poorer now.
Of course, I also have to factor in physical reasons like depression and diabetes. But still, it's an interesting line of inquiry into my lack of productivity, and I'm just offering it to you in case it might have some relevance.
Is it at all possible that your motivations for work have a component that relate to desired emotional response from others. And while you used to get it, you no longer do?
On the other hand, that may just be my issue. :)
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