Posted by daisym on March 16, 2005, at 10:46:21
In reply to Re: so what's this all about? (long a trigger ) » Dinah, posted by mair on March 16, 2005, at 10:09:10
>>>>>Also I'm sure some of this is just plain fear. It's really horrifying to me to look back over the last few months and realize suddenly how long I've been feeling so nonfunctional at work. The "what if I don't come out of this" question looms large.
I think I know exactly how you are feeling. I get horrified to think people are covering for me or that I can't hold it together for days on end. I lost it yesterday afternoon and had to leave the meeting for awhile. Luckily, my therapist was scheduled to call me at 5 and we were able to sort out what happened. But I was mortified that I couln't keep my work separate from my own stuff. It doesn't help that so much of my work is about infant mental health right now.
I think you have to recognize when you feel strong and work like crazy and when you feel less capable and take good care of yourself. It is a balance I'm not good at yet. Let me know if you have tricks.
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