Posted by Dinah on January 6, 2005, at 17:37:35
In reply to Re: I think.... » Dinah, posted by Aphrodite on January 6, 2005, at 16:27:26
Mind if I come back to it at another time?
I got another blow to the knees, and I don't know if I'll be able to stay standing. My whippet is functionally paralyzed below the neck. I've spent all my money and can't afford to have her hospitalized. The consensus is there's only one test that will help, it'll cost a thousand dollars, and it would only tell if she's dying.
So she's at home lying on her side, requiring fairly constant care, moving from side to side, feeding etc.
It's the straw that broke my back. Total meltdown. We're trying to keep me out of the hospital through daily visits with therapist, assuming husband is willing to pay for them. If not, and maybe even if so, I'll be checking into hospital. If it comes to that I'll make sure to let you know.
I just have this feeling that I have to do something really really bad in order to let people see that I can't do any more. People keep expecting things from me. I just think if I do something... well, that'd be triggering. Anyway, my therapist would prefer I go into the hospital instead. I'm not sure.
I am so tired.
poster:Dinah
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