Posted by mair on January 7, 2005, at 4:56:11
In reply to Re: Thanks Emmy and Aphrodite » DissociativeJane, posted by Dinah on January 7, 2005, at 4:14:39
Given the time of your post (even Pacific Time) it's clear you're not sleeping and given the time of mine (eastern standard), it's clear I'm not either.
You're obviously overwelmed and depleted, and exhausted to boot. I can't imagine how you're functioning. Just consider what you've had to deal with over the last few months.
Your son needs you, but he needs a healthier you and I think you've got to do whatever it takes to get there. If that means the hospital - go to the hospital.
My secretary's best friend was recently hospitalized after her husband left her. Everytime I've thought about the hospital, I've never been able to imagine how the typical short stay could make a difference, unless maybe you were trying to radically alter your meds. But the 4 days or so that this woman was in made a world of difference. Maybe there's great value in admitting that you can't do everything and allowing others to start taking care of you. A few years ago when my T was considering whether it my be a good alternative for me, I posted here about it, and one responder said just that - that just the acknowledgment on her part (and on the part of others maybe) that she needed help, made it easier for her to really start healing.
Don't feel you have to go to the extreme of doing something extreme to make others see what you're feeling. The proverbial cry for help suicidal attempt or SI action can go wrong and can be misinterpreted. Just do what you know you need to do to take care of yourself.
Hopefully your T can offer more concrete support.
In the meantime, I'm thinking about you too - alot.
Mair
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