Posted by Aphrodite on September 3, 2004, at 13:38:54
In reply to Re: Crisis #28,567 (long), posted by Dinah on September 3, 2004, at 11:19:22
Dinah, Your reply was so powerful. I thank you for it. You cannot imagine how consumed I am with pride. I am embarrassed every time I walk into his office; I don't want to need him or therapy. I go weak at the knees when I have to go back after I've shown emotion. I hate being exposed. I want him to see the productive, intelligent me, but that part doesn't need him. I'm more vested in being a good patient making linear, measureable progress in order to please him than I am in healing myself.
I think you're right that he wouldn't judge me for returning. I just don't want him to have that kind of power over me, you know? It's such a radical departure from how I've conducted myself over the years. I just don't know what to do. It's going to be a crummy weekend:(
poster:Aphrodite
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