Posted by Dinah on August 23, 2004, at 19:59:29
In reply to Re: What is the point of being genuine?, posted by JenStar on August 23, 2004, at 11:20:06
No, it's just emotions. :)
It came early in therapy when my therapist would ask me to stop periodically during the day and write down what I was feeling. And I just couldn't do it. I'd come in with entries that read "ok", and he'd say ok wasn't a feeling. I didn't understand why ok wasn't a feeling. I was at a total loss to come up with words, other than obvious ones like nervous or anxious. So he gave me a list of emotion words. And I was still at a loss. My vocabulary was wide enough to understand the meaning of the words, but applying them to myself was totally beyond my abilities.
So I finally came up with the color wheel. It was very detailed and intricate. I used my crayola box, and the list of emotion words, and my memory of feelings. It was a *really* big deal for me in those days. My therapist was *so* excited. I was actually admitting to feelings other than "ok".
I guess the idea came from the way I perceive others, oh.. "auras" or something. Not exactly auras. But I pick up on moods pretty well, and have always tended to assign colors to them in my mind. I don't actually *see* colors, but I... Drat. I can't explain. But like my father often seemed surrounded by a black cloud with bolts of red lightning. Not that I literally saw a cloud, but... And my therapist is usually some shade of blue. Not that I literally *see* blue, but... Oh heck.
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