Posted by JenStar on August 23, 2004, at 23:37:29
In reply to Re: A question please? For any/every one » JenStar, posted by Dinah on August 23, 2004, at 20:10:30
Thanks for replying about the colors - I think it's kind of cool that you associate diff. colors with people. (If you ever meet me, I hope to be a pretty green-blue with hints of ocean spray white and deeper green!)
I don't know much about schizoid type personalities or asperger syndrome, although I've heard of them. I know I don't have those tendencies, but sometimes it's hard for me to be ME when alone too. I guess it's just that I don't know exactly who I am, or who I want to be, and when I think about it too much, it starts to creep me out.
It's like when I was a kid, contemplating the meaning of words: Why is a chair called a chair? And I'd look at the chair and say "Chair" over and over and over until "Chair" ceased to have any meaning, and it was kind of cool and interesting and frightening at the same time. I guess that's how I feel about "me" when alone!
Sometimes I have a zen-like attitude towards myself: Just stop thinking about it and BE myself. (I think Daisy said something similar in a previous post.) If I forget to think about it and just ACT, later on I can reflect on it and say, "Oh, yeah, I guess that's who I am."
the concept of self is so strange, really!
Anyway, thanks for sharing your ideas & thoughts.
Hope you're doing well!JenSTar
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