Posted by starlight on August 3, 2004, at 14:44:53
In reply to Re: The Experiment Continues ? starlight, posted by DaisyM on August 2, 2004, at 20:16:24
I'm very aware that depression, bipolar disorder, etc., are illnesses and severity of the illness is different from person to person. I don't like the comparison to diabetes though. I understand what you mean, but no one has ever lost a foot or their eyesight to depression (unless they did it intentionally) And I'm not saying that a person who calls on their therapist over the weekend isn't high functioning, I wasn't inferring that at all. I was just saying that the therapist spacing seems a forgiveable offence that warrants compassion and understanding in the face of him losing a client.
It's easier for a body in motion to maintain it's momentum and harder to start motion from stillness. In my opinion, slowing down enough to catch up with your feelings only makes one want to stay that way or slow down even more. I'm not judging, just submitting my thoughts for consideration.
I recommend, not trusting the mind, not trusting the feelings, which I think it's easier for me to keep going. Here's how I learned that: I do hot yoga. When I first started the yoga there were days that I would be in the room and think I was absolutely going to die from the heat - it was so hot that I couldn't breathe and all I could focus on was the heat, and then I would look at the temperature gauge and it would read 101 degrees. Then there were other days that I would just sail through the class, no problems at all, wouldn't even feel hot and I would look at the temperature gauge and it would read 106 - 107. That taught me that the mind is a liar.
So I don't trust the mind. The mind pulls me in all different directions. It pulls me into fear, anger, jealousy, but in reality, it's me who's putting my energy there. This is easy to understand, but hard to apply and it can take a long time to integrate it into life. Going the buddhist route of being in the non judgemental observer position can be very helpful.
I wouldn't really calling pushing myself, I call it more of submission, or giving up, or acceptance. Once I accepted and gave up fighting that I had to get up early or that I had to go to work then it was easy.
Again, I'm not making any judgements here, and I understand that severity varies. I'm just submitting some thoughts and experiences for consideration. It may resonate with some or make others defensive, but it's not intended to offend.
starlight
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