Posted by crushedout on April 12, 2004, at 8:52:43
In reply to Re: Extra session next week stressing me out » crushedout, posted by Rigby on April 10, 2004, at 10:17:48
...it might help me to be more specific, since I'm going to have to try to articulate this to her later today. I feel like she's being manipulative, almost playing power games with me (especially with this whole "extra" session nonsense, which she has been kind of lording over my head), that her boundaries have been extremely unclear and not only that but shifting, and that I'm scared to make a move for fear of making her mad at me for needing her or making her feel overwhelmed or pressured (because she's told me I make her feel that way). At the same time, her distancing herself from me makes me want to chase after and kind of suffocate her, which only serves to make distance herself more. This may be something I've had a history of doing in real life relationships a long time ago, but isn't the therapist supposed to do more than just enact the f'ed up pattern but rather try to stop it? Show the client a new way of handling it? I don't know. It's super confusing for me right now. I feel like I can't trust anyone, including my own self.Oh, I also get the impression she doesn't like me anymore. Not just isn't attracted to me, but actually dreads seeing me. That's a crappy feeling (and may well be mostly my own paranoia, although a lot of the other stuff I'm sensing I think is real).
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