Posted by Morgen on August 1, 2003, at 13:34:35
In reply to Re: How'd your appointment go? » Morgen, posted by Dinah on August 1, 2003, at 8:09:54
I've had worse weeks in my life, but not two weeks in a row so bad... I guess that makes this the worst two week period in my life. Some sort of hell marathon. And it'll be two weeks this Monday since I've had an appointment. I've had to do some traveling, and I've had to (try to) focus on work. Plus, with our last email communication, I haven't felt very welcome. But, I do have an appointment Monday, finally.
As I was leaving town to start this long project -- which I really needed to focus on -- last Monday, I didn't think I could do it. It was a long drive, and I finally broke down and called her to leave a message, because our last interraction had been her telling me not to email (I hadn't answered), and I'd been feeling nauseous ever since.. and like I keep saying, it was really important for me to focus.
I told her she didn't have to call me back, but the more and more time passed after my phone call, the more I was wishing I'd asked her to. But she did call, and thanked me for my message. I was able to breathe a little easier.
I still ended up a little hysterical that night... but was able to pull it together by morning... after a few calls to listen to the vm.
So, I'll give you an update Monday. There's so much to say, I'm really starting to dread it. I wonder if I should just let the email thing go and pretend it doesn't hurt me. I know she had good reasons, and I don't really want to hear them.
Morgen
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