Posted by B2chica on March 24, 2016, at 13:09:47
In reply to Re: Tricyclics and bipolar depression » B2chica, posted by SLS on March 22, 2016, at 2:48:50
i dont know how this is possible, (nor does most of me care) but..
i started the amitriptyline two nights ago, already yesterday i noticed a reprieve from the extreme unbearable turmoil going on inside my body and brain. today the same. i thought tca's took much longer to kick in?
however, it is also really helping with sleep and anxiety and thinking the reprieve from that is also aiding my improved state.regardless, i no longer feel that agitated or mixed state (whatever they want to call it). i have depression still, very clearly. but i no longer am battling constant instrusive thinking or longing for death.
the interesting thing is also that i have noticed a very clear shift in my tolerance for depressive state. i think a year ago how i feel now would have been hard to deal with. and right now, so soon after that incredible decent to madness of symptoms i feel like i can breathe again. do i feel joy in anything? no do i laugh and enjoy things? no. do i feel sad? yes. lost? yes.
however, i also feel very ...contemplative. and also just very tired.and maybe a month from now these same symptoms will feel heartbreaking to deal with.
but for now...i'm breathing. i'm sleeping. and i'm even able to eat a bit in the evenings. (as i was basically living on liquids this last week).anyway. i guess i was just/am just suprised and maybe a little bit weary that i'm feeling so different, so quickly.
but certainly not complaining.thank you folks for sticking in there with me and for so many responses to my TCA questions.
b2
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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