Posted by Babak on July 3, 2007, at 19:15:27
I have been suffering from depression for 18 years now which until four years ago it was managable with medication. But four years ago my condition took a turn for worse and a whole new set of symptoms appeared. I have become practically cripled and have severe, very severe adhedonia. I sleep or at least stay in bed for some sixteen to eighteen hours a day. Medication has minimal effect. I have used opiods on and off for several years but have managed not to be physically at least to become addicted. I have used heroine on four or five ocassions. I am very scared of addiction but it is the only thing which makes me well enough to carry out the most basic things like having a shower, cleaning the place or even write this message. I know that kicking heroine has its own depression symptom so I only use it sparingly, say once a month when things get really bad that I can't stand my own smell or the place gets so filthy. I call it my holiday or coming up for air because it is the only time when I feel anything like normal.
But it is starting to get out of hand and I am really scared.
I like to know if there is any one out there which is in the same state.
I have also read about deep brain stimulation which is said to work for addiction.
I just like to know more about the antidepressant effects of heroine and corelation between additction and depression.
Any input will be appreciated.
poster:Babak
thread:767449
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