Posted by revaaron on July 4, 2007, at 14:44:47
In reply to Heroine as atnidepressant, posted by Babak on July 3, 2007, at 19:15:27
Babak-
Not sure if my previous post was deleted (does that happen?), but I posted a long rambling thing about my experience with this. Email me if you want very detailed first hand information about this. revXaaron at hotXmail dot com (take out the Xes).
Three points are the gist of it:
1. Many have people traveled this road after discovering what you have. Most have found that using recreational doses of opiates just isn't sustainable. Even if you manage to keep yourself supplied (which is harder for street drugs) and keep the tolerance and desire to continue pushing up your dose, there is a time after which the opiate will no longer make you happy, give you energy, and motivate you. It'll make you sedated, lethargic and possibly even dysphoric, which will likely make your worse depression than it is now. And then you go into WDs, which is a new world of incredible depression even in folks who never had it before opiates. It might take a few months or a couple years, but after a while opiates just stop working for the euphoric joy they give you if you take them day in day out without going through a full WD every once. Like I said, not sustainable.
2. Using any street drug as an AD is a horrible idea. If even after point 1 and general knowledge of what opiate addiction is like you want to try using an opiate as an antidepressant, look into bupe, methadone, or at least something else prescription or another known quanity, like poppy pods.
Bupe has the added plus in that it isn't a full agonist like morphine and heroin, it keeps tolerance in check.
3. If life is this crippling, there are some other things to try beyond the SSRIs that are worthwhile. Like others have mentioned, it sounds like more than just garden variety depression.
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