Posted by pulse on June 18, 2006, at 20:26:07
In reply to Re: bear with me... » pulse, posted by linkadge on June 17, 2006, at 21:46:50
thanks for your further clarification re: all 3 nts involved. glad you reiterate that there's more serotonin involved, however. that's really been an education for me.
re: ritalin. it took my being 7 yrs. clean, out of my now 9, to get any pdoc to prescribe it. then, only because this last pdoc - who thinks of himself as highly knowledgeable, and even runs a separate program for 'substance abuse' - yes, he's one of the buyers ($$$) into that national disaster - didn't ever ask if i'd formerly ever self-medicated with anything. ha! guess i don't have the 'proper' look that all crack 'addicts' are supposed to have. what an arrogant, self-aggrandizing NPD idiot he was - and an inveterate SNOB ta-boot!
my therapist offered to accompany me to that first 1 1/2 hr. consult. both of us were shocked at his failure to ask this - in his otherwise thorough questioning. we were also smugly gratified. i did then try ritalin for 2 months. i did not escalate my dosage, but found the crashes so terrible, that i chose to discontinue it myself.
at that point, then, he agreed with me on this: if you don't have add or adhd (which i don't), ritalin - (even though, it feels a little bit like cocaine, as it's said to) - is still speed. i loved cocaine but HATED speed - only took it 2 times, 35 yrs. ago. ritalin felt in no way like a true augmentor for depression. from all the augmenting with other ADs/ other i've done, i well know the difference. (i don't care for for provigil either, for the fairly similar way it feels - for me.)
next, with him, came desipramine, but monotherapy - made sense for 'drive' - but killed my stomach far more than even ritalin, even at 1/2 norm start dosage.
next came my termination of this pdoc.
pulse
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