Posted by Chloe on June 5, 2002, at 19:04:27
I am in the pits of dispair again. The cycling was under control, but now I am feeling suicidal. The tears just stream down my face.
1.5 mg Celexa
225 mgs Lithium
250 mgs Depakote
600 mgs Neurontin
20 mgs Amitriptline
10 mgs diazapamAnd I can't really go up on the Li or neurontin, because it make my scalp "burn" worse. More Celexa just makes me more agitated.
I also am so pissed with my pdoc. She never got back to me over my mother's psychotic break. And I am furious and don't want to call her for help. It takes her 24-48 hours to get back to me(if at all!), even if it's an "emergency". There is really nothing she can do any way. I need an Antipsychotic when I get like this, but can't take them due to TD in my mouth. So what is she going to say.
I feel very negative and hopeless. I am so tired of feeling like things are great, and taking on major challenges, and then after exhausting myself, landing in a heap of despair.
Oh, I am also very anemic from prolong menstrual bleeding, but the ferrous gluconate(iron supp) make me nauseated and constipated. The flaxseed oil is also making me queezy, but if I stop that the scalp pain in unbearable.
Crap. I am so mad. Will my whole life be a non stop rollercoater ride? Where can I get help if my shrink just lets me titrate my meds prn without even consulting her. I am so lost and confused.
Chloe
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