Posted by BlueJay Bird on April 11, 2002, at 23:37:29
About a year ago a psychologist I was seeing told me she was picking up signs of hypomania in my behavior, but when I mentioned this to my pdoc she was skeptical. However, as time wore on and I began to have cycles (going from feeling okay - never really *high* just okay to crashing in depression up and down, up and down), pdoc began to agree on hypomania.
However, there was a time period during which I did a few reckless, stupid things, didn't sleep much, etc. A crash followed that.
Fast forward to just last week, when I had some disturbing symptoms I FINALLY was AWARE of as they were happening, which I think could be considered hypomania, but maybe not quite, and would like some feedback.
I found that I could not sit still, for example, when watching television I would jump up to go on the computer (it's in same room as TV), then go back to watching TV, jump up to go on computer, back and forth, back and forth.
While trying to watch TV I had very INTRUSIVE, racing thoughts which overpowered the audio of the tv and I basically zoned out on whatever I was watching. When the thoughts quieted down, I realized I'd missed a good chunk of whatever program was on. Also, while trying to watch TV one thing I kept thinking of was going back online to check this site and a few others. I felt edgy and restless and could not *calm down* enough to focus just on the television program.
I also had feelings of being impatient (and I'm usually a VERY patient person) - like I stopped watching my late night TV show and would rush to go on the computer right after the late night news. It was like I literally could not wait to get back on the computer. I didn't even have the patience or interest to watch the late night talk show I usually enjoy, I wasn't even interested in the opening monologue or finding out who the guests were. I was almost *obsessed* with being online.
Does this sound like hypomania or if not, what could it be considered?
After having these behaviors and feelings for several days in a row, I CRASHED big time - could not get out of bed for a few days, lethargic, apathetic, listless, didn't want to eat, just wanted to lie in bed and try to sleep. No thoughts anymore, no nothing.
Does all of this sound like a cycling thing?
Thanks for any input. Greatly appreciated.
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