Posted by PuraVida on October 11, 2000, at 5:13:28
In reply to Re: To all: Re: I'll die if I want to. , posted by Tera on October 11, 2000, at 0:19:27
Has anyone heard from Todd?
Todd - I hope you are still with us, in more ways than one.
Liz
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> > Why would someone kill themselves if they had the flu? Yes, depression and mental illnesses are terrible, but most of the time, with meds and some patience and effort, we do get better. I'm better now, still on meds, and just came on this site for any info on contradictions between serzone and ginko biloba. I am really sad to see such a long thread about suicide. Well, I guess its great that people are posting, and not doing it, but I can't believe how many of you think that its a solution.
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> > I've been battling depression for nearly six years now, and I understand your pain, I do. I've spent months on end in bed, damaged jobs and relationships, etc. I've damaged my credit rating, spent tons on late fees, and who knows what else. No, life shouldn't be so painful, and yes, depression sucks. BUT, YOU WILL GET OUT OF THE HOLE! There is a light at the end of the tunnel - you MUST tell yourself this everyday. I can't believe how differently I can see things now - I can't beleive I ever even thought about not participating in the live. Take your meds, eat good foods, get out doors, exercise, and surround yourself with positive experiences and people. Hypnotherapy, as well as traditional therapy, helped me. So did getting massages and mainucures, and even the tanning bed in the winter! Treat yourself well. Volunteer to raise a dog for the blind, or teach kids how to read. Best yet - get a change of scenery - pack a backpack with a journal and your meds and hike a mountain or catch a flight to India to see how much "pain" others experience. Why do our Western cultures get depressed, when life flows so regularly in other areas of the world? Travel to other countries is possible the best therapy I've found. It's a pain to get yourself there, but once you do, it can be very freeing.
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> > Maybe you are "dead" inside because your environment "killed" you - but really, you've just gone into hibernation. Go live a little! Life is a process, not a goal - take a step each day and you'll be suprised at how it starts to be easier. Its when we sit still for so long, or push ourselves too hard that it takes so much effort to take steps, so take one everyday, no more no less, and off you'll go.
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> > Please don't think I'm a Polyanna who had a bit of a bad mood. I still battle with indicators that I may slip back into the whole, but I use the advice I've just given to you, above, and I've managed to be functional for the past year, and I think I can say I've managed to be pretty happy about myself for the past 6 months or so. There are a bunch of us out here who have made it out of the tunnel - we've got big old lights we want you to see so that you can join us. Good luck!
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> > Liz
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> Norman Cousins once said “the tragedy of life is not death but what dies inside us while we live”. I believe this totally. Every single day we get up and try to not let this life get us too low, too desperate, too sad, too hopeless. I hate that poster of the cat hanging by its claws for dear life because I have felt that way too many times.
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> But 20 years ago I had a near death experience and it was so awesome, so spectacular, so full of God that I do hang on, take anti-depressants at times, do herbs, whatever, until I remember the Glory again. And then I do and thank God I am here to 'smell the flowers' and try to ignore the stinky ones. Sometimes I feel completely stupid because I did see that Perfection, The Light, felt that Perfect Peace and Love and still have all this depression and self-hatred!!
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> Now I am trying to learn how to 'let go of the pole' and just be. I meditate, pray, give myself pep talks, forgive myself, and remember. Yesterday, I forgot. Today, I remembered. Thank you all. Light and Love, tera
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