Posted by susan47 on April 4, 2009, at 14:46:25
In reply to May you have a Long and Happy Life, posted by susan47 on March 18, 2009, at 18:07:17
as though you really cared what I thought, but thank you anyway because I believe that you are trying to help both of us, because I know I'll never lay my eyes on you again, and that is going to be okay, because my therapy-love is now going to be my secret. The thing I keep to myself forever, the memory of your face, brown eyes, the shade of blue that is just right, just perfect on you. Your long fingers and well-maintained nails, things you know people see about you, the way you flick the end of your tie sometimes (what does this mean? does it really matter? it was part of what you did part of you yourself) the way you backed up to the couch or the chair and felt it touch your heels before you sat down, the way you crossed your legs and sometimes acted laid back and bored, and sometimes were caught by surprise.. somehow I don't need to remember those parts of you anymore. Because now I'm free to choose what I like and what I don't, and I do remember the shape of your head, your bearing, the way your hair, so seemingly prolific for a guy in his late fifties, so sweetly touches your collar, so that someone would run their fingers through it and touch your scalp and you would really enjoy that ... see, now I can have all these things to myself and know whatever I like, and I really like that, being totally private and not afraid of being ashamed.
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