Posted by susan47 on March 18, 2008, at 19:51:52
In reply to Re: Dear Ex-T, dear man ..., posted by susan47 on March 18, 2008, at 19:36:06
Okay- reading this previous post I see again that the lost emotions and the what could have been had nothing to do with what I was thinking about the x-T either, because he was never in any of the equation, the lost emotions are ones I'm talking about from when I was knee-high to a grasshopper, ones that resurfaced because I allowed them to have a direction, and that is the only reason they resurfaced and came out as absolute Love for myself seen through the pretend eyes of my x-T, ah Hah. Giving myself the love I never felt before from anyone because I didn't have it in me to give, it just wasn't Safe. Any moment of tenderness allowed myself, any moment of reverie or vulnerability, crushed with the next harsh word. So I gave myself unlimited access to Feeling Good, and unlimited access to my d.o.c., and also unlimited telephone access to my doc. The trick is to feel good again, to find the joy in life that i had at that time, to experience and feel those wonderful feelings, because the feelings were definitely real, and because I felt them once, I want them again. Greedy, I am.
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