Posted by zeugma on October 15, 2005, at 14:13:26
In reply to I tried......and failed miserably - as usual :-( » alexandra_k, posted by Damos on October 13, 2005, at 22:41:41
Damos,
meaning is a binding agent. In my case it is very precarious holding together a few shreds of consciousness.
about spirituality: last night i had terrible hypnagogic hallucinations, when they occur i always think of how in medieval times they were considered nocturnal attacks by demons, and more recently so-called UFO abductions have been attributed to them.
they are extremely unpleasant. i haven't said anything about spirituality. i suppose these hypnagogic hallucinations would have made a me a most spiritual person had i grown up (and i use the phrase loosely) in a different environment.
i break down over the course of a week. i become less responsive, coordinated, and focused. i actually feel ok, simply inert, like mere brain substrate with minimal consciousness.the meaning generator sputters and one sees that it is a machine that makes extraordinary demands on our selves, one can perceive its substrates when the glaze of sensation wears away and what remains is dull enough to stare at, as one can stare at Venus but not the sun.
and if you've ever stared at Venus after sunrise, there are moments when you can see it, then it flickers away, then there, and then... it melts away from the center of the sky.
there is meaning as i perceive it.
-z
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