Posted by zeugma on October 29, 2005, at 6:46:10
In reply to Re: no failure apparent » zeugma, posted by damos on October 26, 2005, at 22:53:47
hi Damos,
I was very glad for your kind words. I don't know what's up healthwise, actually. But i will find out soon (pending test results). the stimulant i take (Provigil) is less cardiotoxic than traditional stimulants such as Ritalin, but also can cause pancreatic problems resulting in diabetes. And I was warned for years when younger when i self medicated with chocolate (for its caffeine mostly) that i was consuming such large amounts that I was putting myself at risk for diabetes (haven't investigated this claim so don;t know if it's on the same level as the other things psychiatrists/psychotherapists have said to me- I have had TERRIBLE responses to psychotherapy). I do know that I self medicate with caffeine and it is not a happy thing, but I have to function.
About meds and creativity, which you touched on earlier and which preserves the relevance of this to PB Writing: meds have not affected my creativity for the worse, though this is more a reflection of limited functioning when untreated. My functioning is still limited: if you were to look at my apt. you would say it was close to nil. Optimal for me was working 20 hrs. a week, that way the functional time I have in me could be divided between work and home. As it is it all goes to work. But I do have to support myself.
The block on dreaming from AD's does not bother me, as I experience waking as dreamlike anyway. I have since read that this is common to depersonalization and to narcolepsy.
Have you tried psychotherapy? If so has it helped you?
-z
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