Posted by alexandra_k on March 2, 2005, at 20:37:44
In reply to kind alex » alexandra_k, posted by Toph on March 2, 2005, at 7:51:10
Oh Toph, that was beautiful, except for this bit. You need to work on this bit:
>Now I see him so independent I am ashamed that I am jealous of him. Oh, I am proud too.
You don't need to feel jealous, just proud. You notice all the things 'from the outside' his friends etc. But how he feels on the inside might be more like you than you can imagine. I mean, you have a lot of friends on these boards, right ;-) But that doesn't change the feeling on the inside all that much...
>He is alright dispite me. I wish I could forgive myself for hurting my son even though I had no other choice. I deserve his resentment and I am incompetent to fix it. I know its not my fault I got sick but nothing will ever make me stop hating myself for being such a failure to the people who needed me most.
You can't change the past.
But you can act different in the future.
It isn't too late, Toph.
If you told him a little of this he might understand.
He might forgive you.
All I ever wanted from my Dad was for him to be proud of me.
I don't know.
It isn't too late.
You did really well.
:-)
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