Posted by alexandra_k on March 26, 2014, at 20:02:04
In reply to Re: increasing sensitivity, posted by alexandra_k on March 22, 2014, at 22:01:31
well, that lab was worse than the last one. think i did an even worse job of it, actually, because i didn't get much of it done. messed up one of the earlier steps (would have dissolved if i had have been able to find a cork and had shaken it harder) and didn't find out about that until half way through which... messed things up, rather. i can't really think with so many people about. i get stuck on things like 'there aren't any corks left' or 'there isn't any of that solution left' or whatever... everything feels all disorganised... i guess that's how undergrads are supposed to learn. like puppies... let them play together / hash things out. i... don't really learn like that. and there it is.
i passed the last lab, of course. you can't really fail people who try. it's just demoralising and exhausting, is all. the past couple years tests all look alright. i mean... i am not getting cocky. i have some work to do to be sure... but they seem manageable. i'd be shocked (after a lot of work to be sure) to pull less than 90%... but of course these labs will pull me down...
had a... i'm not entirely sure what to say... with the organic chem lecturer. which is... not good. she has... the most beautiful set of powerpoints i've ever seen. succinct. clear. a manageable block of content (which i never managed to carve off myself in my own readings on the subject). i didn't tell her that... but it got me feeling upset that we don't have access to those notes prior to the lecture. we have this course book that is... lots of bits missing. and we're supposed to copy the missing bits during the lectures. it ruins the lectures for me. i can't just enjoy listening because i'm busy copying. i'm feeling fairly stressed about accurately copying important things like reactions etc that aren't meaningful yet because i haven't had time to think them through... anyway... i asked about getting proper notes before the lectures so i could do prereading... because for psychology i used to do the weeks powerpoints on sunday then just refresh the 5 minutes before class and then the lecture was nice and easy to follow and i could actively think about the content... whereas now i have... lecture notes that i don't trust to study from... lectures that i didn't get to enjoy properly because i was too busy copying... i just feel overwhelmed. like i'm always playing catch up on content because we can't read ahead or do much to prepare properly for lectures.
even labs... doing prereading doesn't help me find the corks. or know what to do when this or that isn't there. whatever... too many students... i just... can't learn like that.
anyway... i guess i came across as abrupt with my being upset about the half filled course notes that chem and bio-sci does... anyway... she smirked something about my taking it to the disability office.
so that bitch has been yap yap yapping about me. still. and that will carry over to next year. i feel... violated. i mean... this lecture think is more of a student course rep / union issue... and perhaps i will persue it that way... talk to the teaching / learning people on campus and see what they have to say about these half filled course books... she only mentioned it was a disability issue because...
?
because she wanted me to feel that it was a problem only i have and she wanted me to shut the f*ck up?
i don't like it here anymore.
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