Posted by alexandra_k on March 20, 2014, at 1:08:26
In reply to Re: well, that sucked, posted by alexandra_k on March 12, 2014, at 21:49:36
well... i'm still having nightmares about labs.
i think the situation is that it was one of those 'this is supposed to be fun and easy' things that is... fun and easy for everyone but me. like how tech was supposed to be funner and easier than university. and it seemed to be... for everyone but me. hopefully... they will become more prescribed and... well... hopefully... they won't continue to suck :( i do have to pass the practical component to pass the course :( and the labs are worth 15% which is... 3 grades... enough to drop me to a B even if i really ace everything else :(
the theory is fun! lots of stuff to memorise (that i'm actually quite good at since i'll put in the time) and the concepts are cool, too! starting to feel like i'm outgrowing parts of the textbook which is terrific, too! i mean... it is a high school level course... but still... organic chemistry next week. only 2 weeks of it... just a little taster, really. but the same lecturer as will be next year...
i had a thought... i wonder how soon they get the av recording of the lecture up online? i would be prepared to not go to lectures if they are reliable with those. but i don't trust there won't be a transmission failure... so i'd want them to be up before the afternoon times so i could get to one of those if there was a transmission failure... i don't think i can cope with the jostling etc involved in trying to attend over-stuffed lectures...
i don't think open entry is working.
i guess i have close to a year to figure this out.
but i'm enjoying the chemistry for now. which is good. whatever will be... will be.
i've realised that there are so many people hanging about the place because a lot of people have a long commute to get in / out. the tuakana tutorials seem to be more about free pizza than anything else... the silent study floor doesn't work for me... people are incapable of being silent. there are other places... the top floor of the library was pretty good last night. it is good for me to get out of my room and into another space sometimes... not least for the little bit of a walk about... but my room is reliably quiet. i feel so very lucky indeed to have it. to be able to come home for lunch (not sure how i'd afford to eat otherwise). come home to shower (i simply wouldn't use the gym otherwise).
i don't know how i'm going to learn to do focused work with other people talking around me... i just find voices (even non-descript murmerings) to be attention capturing in a way that i simply can't tune out. it is odd that sometimes i can tune out tv voices (only if i have control over it so i can turn it off for the other times when i can't) and sometimes i work well in a place like a cafe with a general murmer of voices... i can't figure a pattern in the sensitivity... but mostly... a solo voice (or a particularly pitched one) totally captures my attention and sends me into an inner rage... anyway... i need to get a bit better at exploring than i have been... and try and learn to be more tolerant... and i'm just so very grateful that i still have my home :) i still loves it very very much :)
anyway... back to common polyatomic ions... -ate... acids...
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