Posted by stargazer2 on October 19, 2007, at 23:46:07 [reposted on October 20, 2007, at 0:38:10 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Why not end it? » Wonderment, posted by Maxime on October 19, 2007, at 22:17:29
Maxime. I hear your pain. I have been where you are and haven't found relief in a very long time. It is almost becoming obvious that there is no medication that will help me. I am continuing to try things, but that is only because I am not suicidal today, but things change so quickly and there are only so many things you can try before giving up. It is so hard to keep trying and failing. That gets to be too much over the years I have been trying to win this battle only to get knocked down over and over again.
I wish you well and hope you can find a reason to keep trying like me (for this week) but I understand why you feel like you do. No one wants anyone to give up but when your efforts are not ever rewarded, its hard to keep any hope alive. My most recent period of "normalcy" lasted about 3-4 weeks and just ended. I saw some hope get quickly dashed, all my dreams for normalcy were erased overnight. I can't continue this life if that is all I can hope for, to be up briefly, just to crash again.
I hope you find relief soon too.
Stargazer
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