Posted by beachbum on October 19, 2007, at 5:30:12 [reposted on October 20, 2007, at 0:38:09 | original URL]
In reply to , posted by on December 31, 1969, at 18:00:00
Oh Maxine I remember you from when I was here around 3 yrs ago; I'm so sorry you're still not finding relief. I know then and I see now, so many care about you. I remember you tried to help me.
The question..hmm..I think most of us go through this. I know I do. dragonwolf is right though, we need to try to hang in for our loved ones. I just think esp of my mom. I know it might not make sense when you are in the depths of despair.
I already started on my 'nightmare' for the next winter months. I hate this time of year also. Been off work again for a week and have not found anything that works for years so I continue to get worse with this cycling. I know come Feb. or Jan. I will again miss many weeks of work, feel like an idiot, cause no one understands how I can be so 'sick'. Also am hating my job which is so stressful and probably isn't helping my BP any but can't make the money I need elsewhere.
I'm not trying to talk about me, just saying I understand; I have been worse and have tried to ###. As hopeless as I feel now I can look back and am so glad I didn't.
I don't know what your beliefs are but I believe one day this will all be over and I will be happy with my Lord even though now my faith is rock bottom again. Maybe I'm not allowed to say this and I apologize in advance.
I just woke up from a 'weird' sleep, many more hrs than what I'm used to and not quite 'here' yet but clicked on here and in my heart had to write you. Maybe that's a good thing cause when I'm 'with it' I worry that people will think what I wrote is stupid, so I don't write, BUT I want you to know another cares bout you and understands, even though I don't know how to help.
{{hug}}
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