Posted by corafree on March 20, 2006, at 23:18:08
In reply to Re: HAVE A SUICIDE PLAN *trigger* » corafree, posted by Phillipa on March 20, 2006, at 22:14:34
I did email you and tell you.
I could take all four bottles of what I have, and I'd still not die! I throw it up. For some reason even tape over my mouth doesn't work!!!!!!!!!!! It won't work. I can't leave. I'm stuck here. I'm just so fed up w/ this stupid, ridiculous, cheap, phony system and all these damn drugs!!!!!!!!!!
And I'm fed up w/ the society that keeps annoying me w/ their 'don't bother me .. I might catch what you have' attitude!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like I just want to die .... but I don't really want to. I want help. I don't want to go to a stupid hospital and here the same ole sh*t over and over again. I could be a better therapist than most I've met at hospitals. I could help others better than anyone has every helped me. I've gotta' get out of this stupid mess some other way.
I don't know. I'm really upset. I'm too upset to even try to do it right! So don't worry ... and I just awoke and came back to post I am fine. I don't understand what Linkadge is saying and I don't understand what to take. Maybe I shouldn't take this Abilify tonight. I didn't realize it was for bipolar and schizo. I'm not there yet .. but maybe if I take it, I will be.
I'm being hurt right now. Right now someone is doing something to hurt me. Actually, two people are. And, they just get away w/ it.
Someone .. can anyone make any sense out of anything for me? I'm scared and alone. I can't be punished for that. I won't be.
I'm so sorry. You have been 'the best' and I've just unloaded on your caring. So pls forgive me. I know you know I would you. I'll be okay tonight and post in the a.m.
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