Posted by alexandra_k on May 31, 2005, at 23:47:44
In reply to Re: Deneb, I replied to you over on Social..:-) » alexandra_k, posted by Deneb on May 31, 2005, at 21:43:18
> I'm trying to find a balance...it is very difficult...both the balancing and the impulse control.
Yes. It is difficult. And it is something that comes and goes a bit. We just have to do the best we can...
> It's difficult for me understand that other people do not think about it all the time like I do.> I'm just not sure still about what the difference is...please help me understand. I've been thinking that all my "bad" posts have been about ideations. For the future should I simply state that: "I have suicidal ideations right now"?...instead of saying something like: I feel like I want to take X and do Y?
Yeah, fairly much.
If you are thinking about suicide you can say that you are thinking about suicide.
Saying that you are thinking about specific methods like 'jumping off a tall building' or taking an OD probably aren't so good... I guess it isn't that there is a general rule there. But a description like that gets mental pictures running through my mind...And the point... The point about suicide... Is something that you thought before. That it isn't so much about dying anyway as it is a wish that the pain and all those horrible feelings would go away.
So it is probably still more helpful to talk about those bad feelings. And help work through some of those bad feelings. Because when the bad feelings go then the suicidal ideation typically goes along with it (or at least isn't so very intense).
> I'm starting to think that maybe there is something really wrong with me sometimes...
Everyone has a hard time when they are feeling really stressed / are feeling a lot of intense negative emotions. It is even part of the diagnostic criteria for BPD that there can be brief episodes of psychosis (typically paranoia) when the person is feeling extremely stressed. IMO that is what is going on. Sometimes you really are very distressed and in those times you do tend to post stuff that sounds a little paranoid. But it goes away when you aren't so intensely upset.
>it's like I can't control what I'm thinking and I start thinking really bizarre things. Thankfully it usually doesn't last too long.
Yeah :-)
Somewhere between a couple hours to a couple days max.>I'm still trying to understand what exactly is the matter with me. I promise I'm going to try really really hard to get myself together.
I know you are trying.
:-)
It is just hard to know what to do sometimes.
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