Posted by B2chica on May 29, 2004, at 14:13:35
In reply to Re: I did it again... » B2chica, posted by Wildflower on May 29, 2004, at 11:30:46
> >>>After beating myself up all day yesterday, I went out with him again last night and we ended up sleeping together. He had to leave to head somewhere last night and promised to call when he was done. I never heard from him. Why do I keep setting myself up to be hurt?
Wildflower, I don't think you were setting yourself up...maybe you just needed comfort...even though it was an unhealthy relationship it was still a comfortzone -at least that's my experience...that's why i Contiually went back to a known abusive person. Even though i was miserable, alone, sad and scared when we were together, it's like that's all i really knew and felt that's all i deserved, so...i would go back.
The difference now is time and experience, and luck that i'm married to a Wonderful man-which i still at times don't believe i deserve.Things will turn around for you, and "YOU make it happen".
What's done is done, don't regret it, and Certainly don't shame yourself for it,You need to just hold your chin up high and take it for what it was. One night. (hopefully at least satisfactory sex??)
> >>>The master, huh? Maybe we both dated the same creep. I, too, hate myself for allowing things to happen.
But it's over. Please remember that. Don't get caught in that trap...i think you know what i mean. Sometimes it's like i'm back there and stuck, and scared...i forget it's over. If you let yourself go back there all those old insecurities, and self-degredation could come back.
Keep yourself focused on the here and now!
We love you!
We're behind you!
You Deserve Better!!!!!!!
B2c.
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