Posted by Tootercat on April 22, 2004, at 11:24:53
In reply to I hate being human, posted by EtktRide on April 22, 2004, at 1:28:18
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Oh my God! What were you here in my head when I got dressed down a few weeks ago????? Boy can I relate. I have been going through my own "e" ticket ride since November (when I separated from my husband)and could not seem to refocus on my job. It was a whole lot easier to have personal calls, play computer games, come in here...well it didn't go unnoticed. I was warned not once but twice that I better get back to doing my job and give them a full days work! I had multiple feelings: fear, shame, guilt, anger (at getting caught mostly)and pouted at first and copped an attitude towards my other coworkers. I cried and looked on the internet for other jobs (I've been here 25 years!) and then got more scared and then got honest. I owed them and apology and my committment to giving them my best. I owed myself an apology for getting even angrier at myself and making myself feel worse. I forgave myself for being human and told myself that I am not "bad". I do have to be aware of when I am drifting and get up and regroup. I have learned some important things about myself one of which is that I need to be given direction and priorities or I spin my wheels. (like right now so I better finish this and get back to work!)
don't beat yourself up! That only makes you more of a victim and gives you an excuse to keep repeating that which makes you crazy.
You are NOT alone!
Hugs,
Toots
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