Posted by geri122 on December 27, 2003, at 9:40:54
In reply to Re: Saturday, posted by LynneDa on December 24, 2003, at 10:31:41
My christmas... well lets just say it was not a merry one. I fell so selfish, but yet knowing that doesn't change the way i feel. Every year, like any child would, they would await the day were they can get up early and open gifts from "Santa". We are all adults here, or at least old enough to know that santa is now real. Sometimes i wish he was. Every year on christmas morning, i go downstairs and open the gifts. And every year i find my self disappointed. I know that christmas is not all about gifts, but it is part of it. Well i got one thing from my christmas list (thats it). I was ok with that, well then i tryed to work it and it didn't work. The one gift that i wanted and go did not work. I delt with it, didn't show how i was feeling because i didn't want my dad to yell and call me selfish or ungratful.
The next day, 12-26, i went to the mall with ny sister and friend. She went with 400 dollars, i wasn't even close. SHe recieved so much for christmas, she had the christmas i always wanted, but will never get. Yeah well, i wasn't having fun at the mall all i wanted to do was go off an be by myself, i didn't want to deal with it, i felt so frustrtaed and confused i felt like i was breaking down, and i really didn't know why.
It has been a really hard year, all i wanted was for somthing good to happen to me. did it.. No. I know that no one lives are perfect, i can deal with that. But why do i find myself want to switch lives with someone all the time. THeir lives seem so much easier then mine, so much better!
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