Posted by geri122 on December 22, 2003, at 14:45:44
In reply to Re: Saturday, posted by LynneDa on December 17, 2003, at 11:12:25
it is hard, hard to wake up and know that you are nothing. worthless. Its really hard toknow that ur own family doesn't appreciate everything you do. Its hard to want to have an excuzz like abuse to hate him. He never hit me, never once, but sometimes it feels like at least then i would have a reason. Its hard to think that no one cares, and those who do are through a computer. Its hard because im afraid to get help.
Do you wanna know somthing. My friend, the one that i talk to about EVERYTHING, is also depressed. Its is hard but yet it easier. She knows how i feel and she tryes to help. Sometimes i hold back, i don't want to put more pain or confusion upon her. She told me that she felt the same, but wants me to tell her cuz it makes her feel good when she helps me.
Its hard. sometimes you get tired of runnin, tired of being somebody your not. u wake up and have to pretenmd you are happy, and sometimes u just can't. You don't want to answer the questions, but you don't want to lie. Everythings a mess and i don't want to deal with it
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