Posted by DeeJay on December 15, 2003, at 15:34:14
In reply to really long post!, posted by Dog on December 15, 2003, at 14:41:23
Dog...that's a great story. I like good ones. Ones that make people smile, like that did me. We have only been together 11 months...and have a ways to go, but maybe I'm expecting things to be how they just aren't going to be. Hellacious, crazy, insane, unstable....all those things I've had before. I just don't see it. I know I know, I sound completely insane for this, but you have to understand. That is all I have ever know, unstable relationships. Haven't had that many, but enough to make me wonder if it is worth it. The only one I did have that was just out of reach was a fella I met in NY while I was visiting. He happened to go to the same college I did, knew some of the same professors, just weird. Too coincidental. Immediateley I was drawn to him and also because he was stationed in Annapolis, MD, (in the Naval Academy) so it was perfect. Could talk to him all the time, but still have my life, he came to visit last X-mas, went back to school, then I met my beau who I am with now. Only because he lived so far away...otherwise I would have loved to have seen him again...that is, if he lived here. Ugh. I just realized all of that just now!!!
Hmmm...and, I don't keep secrets, don't lie, but I can't help but wonder sometimes. I won't see him again, but he IM's me now and again...as friends.
Wow, lookee there with your psychoanalyzation potential stuff you have going on here....that just blahed out of my fingers...and now I'm more confused. I do love my beau....it's the unknown I hate.
Ugh, ugh ugh......;p
Deej
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