Posted by sfmom on December 4, 2003, at 15:38:51
In reply to Re: You Are Not Alone, posted by geri122 on December 4, 2003, at 14:32:25
I'm sorry that I misunderstood the situation. I am so glad that your one friend has been there for you. I can't begin to tell you how much I understand the place that you are in. But the truth is still that some people, even people you consider friends, will not be able to come through for you in all ways nor all the time. I have finally, at almost 30 years old, come to a place where I have a few truly wonderful friends that I can count on for most things. And among those friends there are even fewer who have been able to support me in my current depression and anxiety. The ones who have been able to help me are the ones who have been through it themselves.
I also know what it's like to always be the one who is giving and there for everybody else, even to my own detriment. I have always been the peacemaker and the one who spoke up for people who were too shy or uncomfortable to speak up for themselves. I've even gotten into a few fist fights for other people because that is what I thought a friend should do.
One thing that I am working on in therapy right now is being able to protect myself from that. To be able to let myself get angry at people who have hurt my feelings. It's been very hard for me, I don't want to ever hurt other people's feelings, even if it means I will suffer more. I'm working on it. But it's still hard. But I have been very lucky to find a wonderful therapist who is helping me a lot.
I've also been on medication for almost two months, and just yesterday switched to a different medication because the first one wasn't working. That was very frustrating for me.
But do you know what got me out of bed today? You did. I got up to see if you had posted and to see if there was anything I could do to help you. I really do know the place where you are right now, and I would really like to help you to find the help you need or just to be here to support you in any way that I can. I didn't know how to help myself when I was your age and my situation got worse than it had to be. I don't want that to happen to you too. So if I can help you even in the smallest way, that will make what I went through worth it.
I know I've said it many, many times, but you are not alone and I care very deeply about you. That may be hard for you to believe, but it's true. Please be in contact soon. Love, Lyssa
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