Posted by kara lynne on June 23, 2003, at 16:15:56
Hi everyone,
I moved into a pretty depressing place. I know it was depressing where I was, but this is a whole new set of things to get used to. I hope I don't have to stay here long. I am living below really loud people and I'm so shell-shocked I'm just sitting here staring into space. I try to open a book to study and can't focus.I've had email contact with ex. Right now I'm feeling extremely needy. God, I just want him to tell me he didn't mean it and he wants to marry me so I can go back to him. I can hear the gasping--why would I ever want to, it's so good I didn't marry him, etc. etc. But I'm just aching. I guess this was inevitable. He was sorry for a moment, but quickly went back into villifying me, and talking about how I don't support him or his work.
People say focus on your self, focus on studying. I simply don't know how to focus on anything except a broken heart. That and the screaming, stomping people who live above me.
poster:kara lynne
thread:236377
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