Posted by kara lynne on June 27, 2003, at 19:04:26
In reply to Re: Kara... about my past, posted by kara lynne on June 26, 2003, at 19:29:18
Well someone just told me I'm still looking for daddy's approval. It's so clear, yet so blocked. Simple but complicated. Is that what my problem is? So I never got it from my father--and I keep recreating a rejecting partner to try to resolve it? Or confirm my rejectibility?
I hate to say it, but this feels like a case of the uselessness of psychotherapy. Granted, I haven't had the best, and even managed to recreate my original conflict there. Only when the therapist was supposed to help me heal from it he damaged me more instead.
I guess what I mean is I *know* these things about myself, but knowledge has done precious little to keep me from getting in yet another relationship that slaughtered my self esteem.
What do I do? Get angry? I've done it. Forgive? I've done that. I've done Lifespring, the Hoffman process, meditation, hypnosis, acupuncture, 12 step programs--I've done light therapy and holographic repatterning--the candida cleanse, the....
Well you get the point. There seems to be none.
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