Posted by kara lynne on June 17, 2003, at 18:31:44
In reply to Re: I'm scared, please help » kara lynne, posted by Eddie Sylvano on June 17, 2003, at 13:59:46
for an apartment today. Everyone is telling me to move immediately, even though I have this test coming up in a week and a half. I do not see how I will have the strength emotionally and physically to get it all together, but if they ok my application I guess I will start the process.
I was told not to say anything to my ex, write him a note if anything and say I would be out the 1st. My name is on the lease, but I was told just not to pay any attention to that right now and let him deal with it.
Sickenengly still, I want him to love me again and make it better somehow. I am only saying that so that I don't let my feelings interfere with moving foreward. I'm so scared I won't, because I've let this go on so long. It's just my pattern to stay, and he's banking on that--I overheard him say yesterday that he thinks I'm too afraid to really move.
In the meantime I don't know what I'll do when I see him. If he says, "We need to talk", or anything like that. My counselor says not to engage at all--do you really think that's possible? It's like a nightmare being there right now. I don't know how I'll get through this move, but I'm going to try.
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